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This is super relatable, on levels I can’t comprehend

“Your goddamn right” -Samuel Jackson being trans ain’t a choice I came out of myself crying in the shower

Cishets absolutely are dense AF. Sometimes insultingly so.

Oh poor transpeople :( They live in the society where everyone supports them but It'S sO hArD fOr ThEm. What do you know about problems? Deciding which one of 10000000 made up genders you are isn't a problem. You never had a real problem. That's why a thing thats slightly difficult is the worst thing on the earth.People are dying in wars? Poverty?Hunger? None of that matters beacuse lil Timmy decided to be a girl rather than a boy . And everyone supports his decision beacause if you don't youre suddenly homophobic and worse than Hitler. Almost every company and celebrety supports you,dont make it bigger than it is . Your wokeness already ruined enough

Lol, does going full time fem well before I even had my first appointment with a gender therapist, much less beginning HRT qualify as what you'd call unrestricted? I got so much feedback from others about how brave that was. The truth is that for some of us it's pure desperation. For me it was an accident, that turned that particular switch. I had the intent only to wear that particular outfit for the evening. A thing I did to help me sleep better at the time. But I woke up so late that I didn't have time to change. I was a truck driver at the time and had to make an appointment to pick up a load of cargo, and being late is not an option. When it ended up being not only not a problem, but also having my gender affirmed repeatedly by so many complete strangers. It was so impactful that the next day when I was getting dressed I actually vomited at the idea of wearing the old hated men's clothing. It made the dysphoria around how I dressed worse if anything. Haven't worn even a single thing that was designed for a male body since that day. Going on 18 years now. Gotta admit most of my fits in that first 3-6 months were bloody appalling, got clued in fairly quickly by my best friend though, which helped a ton!

As an autistic transmasc person I feel like all the time I spent masking is definitely making things harder for me. I spent so much time forcing and training myself to talk and move more “normally” which also meant more femininely, to talk more melodically, to sit femininely, to come across less awkward and graceless, to copy the mannerisms that were expected /that more popular and “normal” teenage girls had and stuff, to always act that way and not ever slip up, at this point they’ve become these hard to break habits or perhaps more of a survival skill that I use without noticing when I’m socially anxious or worried about what people think. And I have a hard time observing and copying body language, it was hard to me the first time and it’s hard to me now. And I don’t want a different mask, I want to unmask, but I don’t really know how to go about that when it comes to habits. I actually kind of like my voice when I’m relaxed and feel like I can be myself. I still feel like I want a deeper voice, but I don’t feel that dysphoric about it like that. Then as soon as I’m in a situation where I feel more pressure to mask, or when I’m using phrases that I’ve basically said over and over again and copied entirely from other people, like when talking to cashiers, I use this fake speech melody and talk in a much more high-pitched and “feminine” way and it makes me feel intensely dysphoric. I also feel dysphoric about the way I walk but I feel like if I change anything about it I’m going to look like I’m attempting some kind of parody silly walk, and I feel like when I sit I often feel too anxious to take up more space (isn’t it interesting and fucked up how the main difference between so much of “feminine” and “masculine” body language especially when it comes to things like sitting is how much space you take up). Idk, it’s all these habits I fall back into, making myself small, not taking up too much space, not drawing too much attention to myself, ect.

It’s like climbing a mountain that forces you to face all of your problems and insecurities. (Congratulations btw)

It's not safe for me to come out… 😔

god thank you for talking about the “nightmare phase.” i’m a trans man, so obv i can’t relate to a lot of your experiences, but it’s so validating to know that this is common AND will pass. it’s like i’m in limbo-realized i was actually a man about a year or so ago, and more or less have been battling the world + myself since. thanks for this video.

You go girl!

Even if I'm three years late, congratulations! I know from my own experience how hard coming out is to friends, and I can't imagine how hard it would be to come out to the people you've built a community with. That takes courage.

I really wanna get a work from home job so I can be unrestricted but still behind closed doors 😅 and then only go out for necessities and queer hangouts

never rate again bro bro

I went full unrestricted, and I do not regret it. The day I moved into my apartment, I never boymoded ever again. Except for one time when I had to go see a doctor in my old part of town. But that's literally it. Also, I really liked the video. Subbed. <3

three years. how are you now?

Honestly you already look a lot like one of my friends friends, mostly the hair but hers is more layered. Well done for coming out 👍👍I didn't have the trouble of coming out as many people did, I flooded my parents with lgbtq information beforehand and they were very well informed.

Is it weird that I'm feeling more dysphoric hearing about stuff that other trans women do than the way I look/behave compared to other women? Like I'm not overly bothered about the fact that I wear boxer briefs because they're comfortable and serve as safety shorts in a way, but when other trans women start talking about the panties they're wearing I start getting self-conscious over it.

i just wanted to pop by and say that the thumbnail & drawings made for this video are adorable. :>

I can’t believe people are clicking on this video, going to the comments immediately making a mockery of trans people. 💔

What an amazing start to a game. It really feels like omori in that something feels off even if you don’t know what. I heard that you lost a lot of footage but i hope you at least get a lovely time experiencing the game.

UA-cam has been quite insistent I watch this video, and I'm glad it did. Great stuff.

as a trans girl andro -> male fail is the actual worst but im too terrified to just be myself.. at least I can wear my fem clothes when im alonee which kinda helps!

game I'm emotional about + tomic I'm emotional about + emotional voice + sad piano = me almost crying you got this gurl

Wow you transitioned went very well

I hope you are doing alright scribbs!

Ngl having done it myself for like a year, that whole going all in on presenting as a woman thing is rough even in more exciting places. I lucked out on getting tits from first puberty but over the last year has been a lot of learning and relearning shit. Part of that was regularly wrestling with autistic burnout for trying to mask too much in the process, so over the last idk few months I've been having to figure out being demigirl and how that effects things, wish I could gove more helpful advice but this way of transition is basically just a lot of sometimes painful trail and error but idk I can recommend any other way.

This ideology is wild tbh like where did this originate

That does feel illegal

Shame that Humans B Gone wasn't on here. I'll check Atlas out though.

I'm just shy of a year into my (femme) transition, and so far I've been doing it the same way you described your journey, starting with basically just the underwear and makeup at home only. Over the last 1-2 months I've experimented with wearing sleeveless T-shirts that show the side of my bra on my ribs and are also tight enough to make my growing breasts somewhat obvious, as well as wearing mascara, eyeliner, and eyebrow makeup. This was a terrifying but also liberating experience 🖤 Just yesterday I ordered my first dress and skirt online with some other accessories, and I'm absolutely vibrating with anticipation thinking of the first time I'll get to wear them out 😭

It took me a couple of years before I felt like I found my "style", so I do agree - make mistakes. Go thrifting at Good Will or other stores! You don't have to invest so much money into it, you might find that you don't like that dress you bought at first after 1 year.

I dress in a very androgynous way as a gay man, i usually wear like a t shirt and shorts but then I wear like rings, crazy patterns, fun socks, bracelets, earrings, necklaces, and bracelets and kinda give off a non binary look that makes people second guess what i go by. But it is a cohesive style that i like and i think it's fitting for my personality.

I remember the exact day where I went from ghost trans to openly transfem. It was the day after my mom told me she didn't belief I'm trans and thatshe wouldn’t support me. And my god, did things progress quickly after I let myself experiment out of pure spite

2:15 i really like to call this phase the egg crack phase. same reasons, it's messy, confusing, and hard.

I'm almost definitely taking the restrictive route a bit too far. Two years on hrt and still completely closeted. Don't recommend it.

What's kind of strange to me is that being gender fluid, I have always wanted to wear both clothing but it is kind of interesting the reactions I get because I am a male and very mask presenting most of the time but then some days I just wear feminine clothing and I think it catches people off guard... Luckily I have a workplace that doesn't mind too much..

I don't think ive ever seen you before, but congratulations. I think one of the scariest parts is people not perceiving you the same way. I worry alot that people will think I'm a different person. I am the same person as I was, just happier.

There is one pet-peeve of mine in this coming out video. The use of the word "transgender-ism", which is a term pushed by the phobic bigots to insinuate the thought of a collective cult like agenda and conspiracy. But I understand why it has caught on. It's a more convenient short hand term than saying something like "condition of being transgendered". Maybe many considered to be a term we've claimed as our own, but as someone who came from the atheist debate spheres. Hearing the same argument against transpeople as religious people made by placing an emphasis on the -ism part of the term atheism just triggers me a little. So it is possible that I am alone on this, but at least I hate the term "transgenderism" since there is no dogma, no central jurisdiction, or priest(esse)s, or traditions, or ceremonies, or anything! As for the rest of the video at large. You are right, the real you didn't change by coming out. But you did discover something new about yourself that you didn't know about yourself and it will lead to subtle changes over time. If you get on hormone therapy your emotional world will change, some of your tastes and preferences will change. But through all those changes one thing still remains true. You were and always will be yourself. So please don't take this as a refutation of what you said, on the contraire. What does it mean to be one self? Nobody goes through their life without change. A change in opinion, new discoveries, change in style... life is all about change and the only things that never change are the dead. Life is inherently about change, but on the same token, change is not a lie. A new feeling, new opinion, new emotion today doesn't mean you lied yesterday.Transitioning inherently involves change, it's unavoidable. Don't be afraid to, or of change. Embrace it, discover yourself and most importantly, BE yourself.

That's a male voice

2:20 welcome my favourite series :D

nope, no one even notices i'm in drag except the marker mustache, but now all my sleeves and pants legs aren't inches too short

You're amazing and awesome! ty for this video!!!

My blåhaj’s name is Meg, I love her so much but she has def seen better days :(

How long did it take to start male failing?

I indentify myself as nonbinary, and the biggest difference I felt with the biggest gender euphoria was when I started doing makeup regularly. Right now, I'm also trying to change my wardrobe to match my clothes more to my gender, but its so expensive🥲

I am nightmare phase, and I am doing small bits here and there. Somr slight amount of makeup, slightly feminine mannerism (hard to unlearn 3 decades of indoctrination), and the like. I also have gotten the bravery to wear thighigh socks in public. I already naturally did hit the halfway point with a lot in life, my mannerism, my speech patters, etc, so for me getting deeper into the sauce is where it is at. Though I got a 4 year wait period for HRT... Oh joy!

I want to play it could somebody tell me how to play it

I'm still kind of in the nightmare phase lol. I'd try some different underwear but I still live with my transphobic parents and I'm worried they'd notice.

how... do yall.... deal with not having tiny body sizes and feet for like dresses and pants and shoes....

I’ve said this once, and I’ll say it again, no one is under any other to tell somebody that they’re queer, or that they have a disability, Or most settings anything at all; people on the Internet are allowed to have their privacy, Scribbs, I don’t know who you are, but you were never under any obligation to anyone. To hide something implies, intentional dishonesty about something that somebody is obligated to sell someone else or a group of other people, no one is under any obligation to tell anyone else about who they are. Sorry, this post was so long, I just really thought it was well here, I hope it helps somebody.